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featherduster) wrote2024-04-02 11:50 am
featherduster) wrote2024-04-02 11:50 am
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too powerful
[ Instantly chagrined but also a lil exasperated because bitch, how.
Looks away sharply. ]
I know.
Looks away sharply. ]
I know.
I just mean...the grief is always still there. And sometimes you'll wake up and think it was all a dream and he's still gone. But hearing other people talk about him, and seeing him, and knowing he's still moving through the world...makes it easier to handle. Most days.
[ Takes a deep breath, with some self-admonishment. Wanting Wolfwood awake is selfishness, plain and simple. ]
Well.
... Once we've solved this place.
Well.
... Once we've solved this place.
Hopefully before then.
[he wants to tell him not to be so self-admonishing. but any way he could think to say it sounds harsh in his own mind, and he doesn't dare say it out loud]
[he wants to tell him not to be so self-admonishing. but any way he could think to say it sounds harsh in his own mind, and he doesn't dare say it out loud]
... No. It's not embarrassing.
I think... being able to love like that is a good thing. Even if it isn't returned.
I think... being able to love like that is a good thing. Even if it isn't returned.
Maybe... accepting your own selfishness is an inevitable part of loving someone.
Is that what you're doing?
[genuinely curious]
[genuinely curious]
Is it?
I dunno. Maybe I'm trying, but not always succeeding.
I dunno. Maybe I'm trying, but not always succeeding.
Trying counts for something. It's not an easy thing to accept.
I think so too. It is just a little painful as well. But, I shall take this pain and use it for good. So I do not regret it.
You're still gonna remain friends, right?
[ Is this is CR growth dot jpg ]
Anyway, in the meantime, I'll just have to go to you for -- uh... not parenting advice.
[ That's terrifying. Sends a shiver down his spine thinking of it. ]
But. Uncling advice? If I'm gonna help out more when we go back home...
Anyway, in the meantime, I'll just have to go to you for -- uh... not parenting advice.
[ That's terrifying. Sends a shiver down his spine thinking of it. ]
But. Uncling advice? If I'm gonna help out more when we go back home...
Mm...! We still talk, and have every intention of remaining friends. He is no less important to me now than he was before. I will just try to respect that the way he cares for me is different from how I had hoped.
[studies say: maybe
chuckles a little trying to picture Styx and Minuet co-parenting though. chaos.]
In Korea, an uncle is "ahjussi". That's what Yerim calls me, and I'm raising her. I'm not perfect, but by now I'd say I'm plenty qualified to give advice on how to be a decent ahjussi. But I don't know if you need it. You're good with kids if you try.
chuckles a little trying to picture Styx and Minuet co-parenting though. chaos.]
In Korea, an uncle is "ahjussi". That's what Yerim calls me, and I'm raising her. I'm not perfect, but by now I'd say I'm plenty qualified to give advice on how to be a decent ahjussi. But I don't know if you need it. You're good with kids if you try.
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