[all right. making... note of all that. jesus, so many wings and he's immediately adjusting so he's focusing on the more problem areas. getting their feathers sorted and then trying to gently, oh so gently with calloused and rough hands, manually manipulating those wings into movement.]
[the nice thing is this barely even counts as powering through pain in an unhealthy way because 1) it's good for someone else and 2) all of it is so weird he can mostly treat it like a very tactile intellectual exercise instead of really living in it and freaking out more.
which is to say, he doesn't really react like Styx is hurting him, though sometimes a wing ruffles involuntarily if the cramp is very bad and he'll tell him to either stop for a second or work it through. once it's loose enough to move he makes Styx help flex it creakily out to its full span as best as he can. it's easy to get into a rhythm about it.]
[meanwhile, this is probably the quietest Styx has ever been and his own anxiety ratcheting up along with some other negative emotions that are getting shoved to the obscure background because not now. but he wasn't lying about thinking he's not great at being nice or gentle and even knowing Vash's wings aren't bird bone hollow like Perci's doesn't help making him feel like one wrong move might fuck things up instead of make them better.
but it's fine. he's fine. just 100% focusing on doing it right, listening to the cues, etc.]
--y'can turn off the mental stuff. Got a good general idea where the worst is.
[well, thank God for that because Styx trying so damn hard to keep down whatever emotions threatened to come up at that thought, though maybe hints of the embarrassment and even bit of shame for any of it getting picked up on get through, who knows. just gotta work on that some more, clearly. he's not saying shit about it.
[simply they can just never talk about it more and keep dying! that seems like a feasible path to take!
for now -- yeah, they are cooperating to get the job done, to make sure at least all the fully locked-up wings are in better shape for Minuet to come back to. does Styx stop it at that or decide he wants to also get at the ones that are at like 70-80% fucky instead of only the 90-100% fucky ones?]
he's gonna keep at it until Charon decides he's had enough, really. might not be the most comfortable, but probably it feels better after they get unstuck?]
but actually at some point into working on some of the less terrible ones he stops being responsive. like the wings still nudge up and fluff when Styx touches them, but he's stopped responding to instructions and everything seems to have relaxed out some again.
that's. hm. that's fine. guess stretches will have to stop there except for smaller wings. time for just finger combing and preening whatever feathers he hasn't gotten to yet.
Charon needs naps anyway. so it's fine. he can nap and Styx will wake him up after a little while.]
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featherduster) wrote2023-06-15 02:30 pm
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Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
which is to say, he doesn't really react like Styx is hurting him, though sometimes a wing ruffles involuntarily if the cramp is very bad and he'll tell him to either stop for a second or work it through. once it's loose enough to move he makes Styx help flex it creakily out to its full span as best as he can. it's easy to get into a rhythm about it.]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
but it's fine. he's fine. just 100% focusing on doing it right, listening to the cues, etc.]
--y'can turn off the mental stuff. Got a good general idea where the worst is.
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
You're fine as you are, you know. Sometimes trying counts for more than getting it right the first time.
it's sincere.
but he draws back. the door closes. the feathers clinging to Styx's arm unravel all at once]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
just continuing his work.]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
for now -- yeah, they are cooperating to get the job done, to make sure at least all the fully locked-up wings are in better shape for Minuet to come back to. does Styx stop it at that or decide he wants to also get at the ones that are at like 70-80% fucky instead of only the 90-100% fucky ones?]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
he's gonna keep at it until Charon decides he's had enough, really. might not be the most comfortable, but probably it feels better after they get unstuck?]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
but actually at some point into working on some of the less terrible ones he stops being responsive. like the wings still nudge up and fluff when Styx touches them, but he's stopped responding to instructions and everything seems to have relaxed out some again.
oops. Styx made him fall asleep]
Re: Day 25, at some point during shepswap
well,,,
that's. hm. that's fine. guess stretches will have to stop there except for smaller wings. time for just finger combing and preening whatever feathers he hasn't gotten to yet.
Charon needs naps anyway. so it's fine. he can nap and Styx will wake him up after a little while.]