( sheep ) overflow

[featherduster]

too powerful

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Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ Dry ]

Guess we need emotional walkie-talkie more often, then.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[thinks about how hard to tried to contain his emotions this whole ritual]

Uh. It's probably better...to not...it's embarrassing.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ Listen he understands being shifty about emotions. But not the LOVE AND PEACE ones. Dude. ]

Your feelings for your friends are embarrassing?

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

Sharing them is embarrassing.

[he is, indeed, embarrassed just thinking about it]

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

. . . It makes me happy though . . .

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[ONE HIT K.O.]

...As long as you promise not to be weird about it.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ slow golden retriever tail wag... ]

What counts as 'being weird about it'?

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

I don't know. Freaking out?

[tentatively loosens his iron grip on his emotions...some fondness and affection leaks out...]

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ Cannot actually promise not to get flustered over the mortifying ordeal of being loved but, ]

I won't.

Warm feelings... [ hesitates ]

... I just think things would be better, with more of those.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[leans back so he's resting more against the edge of the pool, releasing a tiny bit of tension from between his shoulders. he tries to ignore a nauseous bit of self-consciousness that's stuck in his chest as he lets out all of the things he's been trying so hard to stuff back down where it can't be acknowledged or felt.

unfortunately, it's an unnecessary amount of affection. like pulling back blackout curtains only to be blinded by midday sun, warm and blinding and overwhelming. it's not necessarily specifically directed at Minuet--some of it is clearly just a broad, general sweep of fondness for the people he's recently spent time with--but there is an undeniable sense of companionship and love that he feels from being in Minuet's company.]

How's that?

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ His own emotions are a jumble of-- embarrassment, yes, always and forever. Sheepishness. Something distinctly humbled, that part of him that always questions whether anything good is deserved or not. But love and fondness of his own, simultaneously soft and fiercely sharp, like a tool to either comfort or protect as needed. Relief, in non-insignificant amounts.

All that, and the frankly staggering level of trust needed to be okay with this at all, in contrast with the lighthearted proposition he'd made it sound like.


Very solemnly...



Hairruffles him ]

Thank you.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[swats at his hand very halfheartedly]

Don't say thank you when I'm just feeling everything I'd feel normally.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ Letting him ]

I can't take kindness for granted. It's not a given.

So... I'm saying thank you, because it's what I'm feeling anyway.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

You're so embarrassing.

[he's touched and that's extra embarrassing. slides down into the water a little more]

Kindness isn't a given, but you should act like it is. Some people will still try to take advantage of you or double-cross you. The average person will feel like they have to respond with kindness if you act like they should be kind, though.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ the actual problem here is the self-worth but Lethe got the spirit ]

... Alright.

I'll try to remember that.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

...I'll also...be nicer. I really thought you liked that kind of banter. I'm sorry for misunderstanding. I'm also sorry that Styx is more of an asshole than I thought.

[genuinely, sincerely apologetic]

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

It's alright. Your intentions were good, that's all that matters.

As long as I know that -- like with Styx -- it's not a problem.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

You should have already known that at least a month ago. See if I tell you anything important anymore.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

I--

[ He does feel a little guilty. A little bit. Lethe gaslighting him masterfully ]

I never claimed I'm smart.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[he still isn't mad, he's just sulking horribly]

I'll let it slide since you're not used to having friends.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ SINKS INTO THE WATER ]

Ouch..........


[ he's right tho ]

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[...pats his head. fond fond fond]

It's okay. You get better at it with practice. I didn't have a lot of friends growing up either.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ Peers up at him in open surprise ]

Seriously?

But you're so... you.

[ Probably in the normal course of conversation this would sound mildly insulting, but his emotions make it clear it's actually extremely complimentary and stuffed with admiration ]

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[mykidisthebest]

[he is kind of flattered in a weird way and also in a normal way]

Uh, thanks? It's not like I was unfriendly, but I was busy. When I started working full time I was always the youngest person at my jobs too. It's hard to make friends when everyone you know is middle-aged. So I didn't make a lot of friends until I got older.

Re: Day 69 (nice), emotionshare

[featherduster]

[ He can feel the ??? as Minuet attempts to visualize what a (relatively) normal life on Earth must look like. Fucking wild. ]

I see. I'm just-- surprised. This kinda stuff seems like it comes so easily to you.