[ The ears are always more expressive than the feathers; they flick back, flat against her hair, and she just considers the empty cup with more attention than it's truly worth. ]
Acquaintances, sure, but they're not like-- I don't really have--
...
And anyway, I kinda assumed you'd move on for real after all that.
[ Because they don't technically have a "connection" anymore? Because they hadn't talked for like ten years before the boat forced them into close quarters so why start now? Because-- and most importantly-- now that she's done the job she was tasked to do, she's fully outlived her usefulness?
She doesn't say any of that, of course, because it sounds insane and also they're in public. But she does visibly fret about it, sort of idly picking at her sleeve in lieu of anything actually connected to her, and eventually says, ]
... Just felt like how it was gonna go. We get "out" and then-- ... then you all go back to the lives you actually want, and all that.
[ Looking directly in the eye it's nearly impossible for her to hide the way the idea of it crushes her, but she sure does try to shut it down as quickly as possible. ]
[ The reaction is near-instant, the moment he makes it clear what he's doing-- she pushes into him, arms tight around him and fingers clinging hard into the back of his shirt, ears flat and tail low. ]
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[ It's a rhetorical question, really; he knows she has friends on the boat, at minimum ]
And what am I, chopped liver?
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Acquaintances, sure, but they're not like-- I don't really have--
...
And anyway, I kinda assumed you'd move on for real after all that.
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What does "moving on for real" entail, exactly?
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But you're not in it, not anymore. So why would I have to move on from you?
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She doesn't say any of that, of course, because it sounds insane and also they're in public. But she does visibly fret about it, sort of idly picking at her sleeve in lieu of anything actually connected to her, and eventually says, ]
... Just felt like how it was gonna go. We get "out" and then-- ... then you all go back to the lives you actually want, and all that.
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[ He moves around in front of her, tugging a little at her hand. ]
You know I didn't want to leave you. Right?
[ He is not sure she does in fact know that ]
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There is a distinct sense that No She Did Not Really Know That. But. ]
Well-- you had to, right? Even if you didn't want to, it isn't like you can trust me.
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It would've been selfish, wouldn't it?
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[ it isn't accusing; more wasn't that the point? ]
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I'm not mad the you "left me" or anything like that. If that's what you think. I just figured-- with everything done...
[ gestures weakly. ]
I'm still trying to figure out what to do and all, so it isn't like that's your issue to solve.
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Do you want me to leave you behind now?
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... No.
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Then I'm not going to.
[ Simply ]
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... sorry. I've been doing a lot of-- assuming, lately.
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[ He squeezes her hand ]
I want you in it, though.
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-- Y'don't have to. It'd be easier if you didn't. So long as you're happy with how things turned out, I can't complain.
[ a pause. ]
But if you actually want me. Around, still. I want... that, too.
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You were one of the only things about that shitty place that was worth it.
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... I do trust you.
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Fuck it, there's nobody here to break their fingers. Pulls her into a hug ]
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I'm sorry, Cori.
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For what? I-- have you, so...
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But... I remember how it felt.
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